Archive | August, 2014

I Left Hell and Relocated

19 Aug

For those of you who don’t know, I recently relocated from my home about 900 miles. On August 8th, I packed up my car and began a two day journey down to my favorite edge of the earth. I only pissed my pants slightly on the drive down being that the furthest I had ever driven was from Cokato to Mankato and now i’m stuck on a drive from Minnesota down to Kentucky. It was scary being that I had just turned 18 on the 26th of July and now i’m doing full-fledged adult things like buying cigarettes, paying bills and driving halfway across the country. I can’t even begin to explain the feelings I had during those 17 hours of driving.

When you turn 18, most kids feel like they’ve transitioned from teenager to adult in the matter of a single calendar day. So many kids have these big ol’ dreams of leaving and starting life but I wonder how many of them actually do? How many kids leave the town they “hate so much”? How many kids go further than an hour from their parents house? I am in no way saying that staying close to home is a bad thing, but what I am saying is, how many people follow through on what they want? Now i’m no saint. I’ve done my fair share of complaining and bitching. But what I have learned is that in order to get what you want and to reach your goals, you have to be absolutely ruthless. No one gets from where they are to where they want to be by sitting on the couch and looking out the window wishing they were successful. You can’t expect success if you can’t expect to work for it. Nobody “got rich fast”. (The Kardashians do not count in this motivational spiel). In todays generation, which just so happens to be my generation, I see such a lack of motivation and work ethic. Now of course, not everyone in todays generation are lazy and unmotivated. But what I am saying is that when it comes to getting from point A to point B, so many kids wait around to get from both points via someone else’s hard work.

Sometimes things happen for reasons we can’t explain. When we work so hard to get from where we are and where we want to be and it fails, we can’t begin to fathom the reasons why we are unsuccessful. Most times we have a plan. I originally intended to be in college right now. I originally intended to be on a the college speech team I worked so hard to get on. I’ve had a plan for a long, long time and I had been slowly working towards my goals one day at a time. Eventually, I reached my goals and I thought I had succeeded. Well, i’m not in college right now and i’m not competing. I thought by not doing everything I had worked hard for made me a failure. This year i’m taking a year off and instead of going to college, i’m living with my grandparents and taking care of my terminal grandpa. Hard work? Yes. Worth it? Yes. Still working towards my goal? Yes.

Even though i’m not going to college, i’m working towards college this entire time i’m taking off. Long story short, college is expensive. By living in Kentucky with my grandparents, I can help them and help myself by gaining residency. After moving down and getting settled in, it’s been very clear to me that this is little road block is all part of the plan. Not only will I be able to take a year for myself and work, i’ll also be able to take a year to mature and learn. The most important part of any bump in the road is to learn from that bump and realize that it’s there for a reason. A problem isn’t a problem if it doesn’t stop you. If you let things get in your way, you won’t get to where you want to be. Instead, take whatever gets in your way and examine the problem, how to fix it and how you’re gonna move forward.

Of course I found it hard to move away in some aspects. I’m gonna miss my family and close friends, naturally. Of course i’m going to miss some aspects of the environment. But it’s time to be honest here. That town had absolutely nothing to offer me. Every place has its good spots and bad spots, but this place had more bad spots than most. I have never been in a place that bred cruelty and naive-minded people as much as that town. Most people feel like they don’t fit in, but this town makes sure of it. I don’t care how many times it’s been voted “the best place to raise your kids”. I wouldn’t be caught dead raising my children there. Of course, there are people in that community who I value tremendously; there are diamonds in every rough. And it amazes me that there are so many people that have such a distain for that town but how many actually leave? I left and have not looked back since. I can tell you that majority of that town said goodbye to me with both fingers stickin’ up high and can tell you that I waived right back and then some. In order to follow through on what you say you’re gonna do and get to where you want to be, you have to walk away with both fingers blazin’ and not look back.

You don’t have to agree with everything I say. You don’t even have to like me, nor respect me. But you do have to realize that I am absolutely ruthless when it comes to reaching my goals and i’m not going to let anyone or anything get in my way. If reaching my goals means I have to blog from my phone while at chemo treatments because grannies house doesn’t have internet, so be it. But I did leave hell and I working my way up to Heaven one day at a time.

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